yesterday,i went for my time trial at macritchie,and this what i feel:

sigh.the team has changed so much since what we left it as. as of yesterday,i promised myself i would never return to canoeing! (unless some unforseen circumstance tells me otherwise) first of all,the team is so DEAD and UN-BONDED now! definitely not what i remembered it as.. maybe because it was the peak period,maybe its because we were still very good friends with each other.i don't know.i just know now,it sucks! plus,now i really hate the coach,according to him,i'm "no longer under gess canoe sprint team" tsk.it's alright,i'm over it. suan me as much as you like over how i got chased away from my OWN CCA! i don't give a shit,because i don't feel connected to that place anymore. it's alright,look AHEAD not BEHIND. i have nothing more to say about the team,esp the coach. 'now all that's left is a memory,a memory of how the team used to be such a part of me'

the canoe sprint team had only peaked for such a short while.during our competition time,it seemed like everyone finally recognized the canoeists.everyone began to see us starting to shine. plus,everyone was envying us for being such a BONDED and FUN team,but loook at what it is now.. i may be wrong,it may just be this period. it may peak again,it may have never dropped from that peak, but whatever it is.for now,i feel as though everything we've worked so hard to build up,is gone. forget it.i won't be going back anymore.i'm not even ALLOWED to go back-.-

i'll just look foward to the EOY trip IF WE'RE EVEN INVITED-.-